Grumpy!

I am just grumpy

I am tired of my life being so freaking difficult.

Yes, I know it is all in your choices.
But, when you think you are making good choices and things still aren't working out what do you do?
How long do you pause/ wait for something good to happen after a new choice or direction?
I know your suppose to listen to your gut - but, my gut doesn't even know which way is up right now - UGH!
It has got to have something to do with the dam planets like retrograde or something maybe planets are going to collide. For some reason that might actually make me feel better.

Closure...for all of us

So wow! I went to my first therapist party last night. I worked with those therapist for over three years and now that I wasn't their boss anymore I guess, it was OK.

I to be really honest here - was scarred to go. Maybe it stems from my feelings that if I hadn't gotten fired and stayed -things wouldn't be happening as they are now. But, I know that is not true and that is partly why, I am not there now - I disagreed fundamentally with certain changes that were coming down the pipe line for the spa. And in the corporate world if your not in agreement then your out!

It was actually very good for me to see all of those people - kind of like closure which I was missing and needed. There was so much pain - maybe, that is why I would never make a great manager because, I think of situations from all sides not just the business side. Things happen and the business world needs to realize that we are all people and things happen to all of us outside of our work life and that is a fact of life.

I believe that true healers need someone to listen to them, to understand them, and what they are going through, so that they can do what they do. Healers/Therapist are definitely a different breed of people but isn't that what makes them so great at what they do? The business world or rather corporations I don't think will ever understand that therapist/healers are not in a business model no two are a like or ever will be and I am thankful for that.

I realize now, that group of wonderful people -who did make me crazy on a regular basis helped me grow. They taught me to listen better, laugh more, argue better, and stand up for what I believe in that is way more than anyone could ask from their employees oops! I meant independent contractors. I love you all and wish you all the very best in your next endeavors.
I will especially miss Lynn & Ken's sense of humor, Mariela's and Colleen's understanding, Deborah's fight and sweetness, the sweetness of Meredith & Larry, Tyann who should have been a little fairy, Bebe's on the go-ness, Dawn's ability to do it all, CoCo's big smile, Bob's arguing OK, maybe I won't miss that, Carla such respect, oh, Coe what a big teddybear, and Dora and Tammy who were there when I started and knows it all - I am sorry I know I am missing a lot of you but I wish you all well.
Remember, that sometimes fate has a way of making decisions for you that you should have made for yourself - at least that is what I have been telling myself and may you all see what is so special in each of you that I see in you.

Did ya know...

A Snail breathes through it's feet - wow my raspberry snapple cap told me so! Could you imagine breathing through your feet good thing most of my shoes are flip flops - just in case that ever happens.
So yes, things are still moving along just much slower than I would like but moving along. Much like a snail. I hope I don't jinx myself but I am averaging two clients a week yippeyy! I am hoping for three or maybe four next week. I am still looking to add another job to my days - just haven't found anything that is either early am or in the pm's yet. I am hoping that - that really comes through soon so I can get myself out of this massive whole I have dug for myself.

Watching my niece has been fun but boy she is on the go and at her last checkup the Dr stated that she is at a three year old level as far as langauage and learning she is only eighteen months ...a little genius. Definately stubborn, my is she stubborn definately not a family trait.

So it ends up that I had stress fractured my foot on my trip to Europe so I had to lay off the walking for the last couple of weeks and I am hoping to get back to it this weekend at least try and see how my foot does that laser the Dr used on it really helped a lot like 75% better. I have a couple of friends that really want me to get into bicycle riding ...will see.

The weather has finally started to warm up here it has been so chilly with the wind - Yuck!
So I am glad the wind has died down. Thats it for now - later

Watching Mya

So this was my second Monday watching Mya this week we went to Avila - she is a riot. Last week we were at the park today she learned how to run from the waves (I love the action shot) and then to stand there as it goes back out - soooo funny. Then she was cold and it was time to go!

Here she is at the park
Playing in the sand
Watching the waves - which she was terrified of at first

This is the shot I love! I know it doesn't show her face but - if you were there and could hear her squeal - hilarious! She never did warm up to the seaweed.

First Weekend in June and Elana's here!

Elana had come to visit - now that she lives down south we get to go do fun stuff when she comes to visit. So we decide Montana de Oro would be a fun place to go. I am not sure why I forget how much I like tide pools, years can go by the time I remember to go see them again. Why so long - I do not know - especially, when they are so much fun! Not even June gloom - kept us a way. I loved it! As you can see the girls found a bright orange star fish
Yes, we did but it back
The colors were so bright - I don't even think this picture does it justice
Another beautiful day on the Central Coast!

We end the day with a Blues game - plus, they had some great fireworks - I was impressed! Go Blues!

Memorial Weekend part 2

Ok, then Sunday I went to my very first Blues game with Mary. Good times and really can't get any more Americana than a baseball game on Memorial weekend.

Then we get to Monday which was also a beautiful day chilling with Mary & David - they looked stressed don't they?

Memorial weekend 2007

The start of my Memorial Day weekend was celebrating Debbie & Bruno's renewal of vows for there 35th wedding anniversay. So, cool - 35 years!! IT was a beautiful day up in Templeton in the park. It was a bit windy but beautiful!
The
Martinelli Family
Jonni & Bruno
Jessie and me
Shelli & Paul
It was a very nice day in the park !

Ok

OK, I know it has been awhile but, there is a reason. The last couple of weeks I was getting all of these comments and heard through word of mouth that my blog was to sad and yada yada yada. So as you probably noticed I posted quotes because I didn't know what to do? And then I was contemplating not writing on it at all any more because what used to make me feel better was no a source of more contemplation. Then I was thinking I would maybe just post photos but, that wouldn't really be me now would it?
So, I don't want this to come across being mean but, if you think my blog is to sad don't read it. I am not sad - yes, well, actually sometimes I am but isn't everyone sometimes? I am in heavy analytical mode but doesn't everyone go through that on occasions and in periods of great change in there life? Plus, this is for me - writing on this blog is a purely selfish thing that I enjoy! Itusually makes me feel better too! And actually my family really enjoys it too, they are seeing maybe for the first time a person they didn't really know. Or hearing about things in my life that I don't know why, I just never tell them about.

I would appreciate from all of my loved ones that if you have questions about something I write or a question for me please, just ask me.

so I just pulled some new cards and the words were

Harmony Synthesis and Infinite Possibilities

look you all, things are looking up already!