So I have one day left until I hop on a plane and I am getting nervous, nervous about walking a thousand freaking miles! To nervous about leaving all things that bring comfort. What brings me comfort? Well, actually a wide variety of things… hugs, cooking, laughter, meeting friends downtown at my favorite watering hole, to just sitting and visiting and of course laughing oh, and my bed – I love my bed.
Why, did this adventure seem like it would be so easy? And I don’t mean easy in the sense of walking a thousand miles easy because even a dreamer knows that not to be true, but, easy to leave, it seemed like it would be so easy to leave everything…everyone behind – it is not. Whether it is my cute as a button, year and a half old niece (someone said last night – “buttons are not cute”…so to convey her cuteness I don’t know what else to say – someone come up with something and let me know) who is talking (and making sense) and excited about lizards and dirt. To the dear friends/family that have recently lost a family member or the regular things I did that I looked forward to on a regular basis like pottery class or game night?
Maybe this whole thing is to grow a finer appreciation for those wonderful people I have in my life. Is that even possible? From those of you I see on a daily/weekly basis to those of you on not such a regular basis – you all have something that I just love… a sense of humor. Or maybe you can just make me laugh or laugh at yourself which I treasure more than gold.
I recently as in this week have actually learned a lot about myself which is kind of funny at 36. Determined, stubbon and loyal which can all be both a positive and a fault but, maybe that is what will get me through this crazy little adventure. I have always read horoscopes that say Leo’s love the lime light; I never thought that was true of me – I tend to get anxious in the spot light and not feel deserving. But my god you guys have been more than generous and actually to those of you that ended up helping make this happen I don’t think I can express in words how thankful I am. I truly would have had to cancel this whole thing if it wasn’t for you and I am truly appreciative. I keep hearing you would have done it for me – which yes, I would have but I don’t know- it is really hard to be on the receiving end of things.
So I was given these angel cards sometime ago by a dear friend. So the idea is to pull three cards without looking - it is a kind of magic ball-ish, horoscope-ish kind of thing. For months I have been pulling cards with the words of, clarity, communication, purpose, surrender, the other day I remembered them (they used to sit at my desk at work) and I have been pulling the coolest cards the last couple of days like beauty, joy, grace and delight. So these are the words I am going to leave you all with…
Beauty, Joy, Grace, Delight
and I am adding one
Love
Why, did this adventure seem like it would be so easy? And I don’t mean easy in the sense of walking a thousand miles easy because even a dreamer knows that not to be true, but, easy to leave, it seemed like it would be so easy to leave everything…everyone behind – it is not. Whether it is my cute as a button, year and a half old niece (someone said last night – “buttons are not cute”…so to convey her cuteness I don’t know what else to say – someone come up with something and let me know) who is talking (and making sense) and excited about lizards and dirt. To the dear friends/family that have recently lost a family member or the regular things I did that I looked forward to on a regular basis like pottery class or game night?
Maybe this whole thing is to grow a finer appreciation for those wonderful people I have in my life. Is that even possible? From those of you I see on a daily/weekly basis to those of you on not such a regular basis – you all have something that I just love… a sense of humor. Or maybe you can just make me laugh or laugh at yourself which I treasure more than gold.
I recently as in this week have actually learned a lot about myself which is kind of funny at 36. Determined, stubbon and loyal which can all be both a positive and a fault but, maybe that is what will get me through this crazy little adventure. I have always read horoscopes that say Leo’s love the lime light; I never thought that was true of me – I tend to get anxious in the spot light and not feel deserving. But my god you guys have been more than generous and actually to those of you that ended up helping make this happen I don’t think I can express in words how thankful I am. I truly would have had to cancel this whole thing if it wasn’t for you and I am truly appreciative. I keep hearing you would have done it for me – which yes, I would have but I don’t know- it is really hard to be on the receiving end of things.
So I was given these angel cards sometime ago by a dear friend. So the idea is to pull three cards without looking - it is a kind of magic ball-ish, horoscope-ish kind of thing. For months I have been pulling cards with the words of, clarity, communication, purpose, surrender, the other day I remembered them (they used to sit at my desk at work) and I have been pulling the coolest cards the last couple of days like beauty, joy, grace and delight. So these are the words I am going to leave you all with…
Beauty, Joy, Grace, Delight
and I am adding one
Love
1 comments:
Go girl! I hope your feet start feeling better soon. Hang in and keep going. It can only get better. You are in my thoughts daily and look forward to your postings. Keep them coming! What an adventure!
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