communication.

Maybe this is the hardest thing in life to learn...communication. So much is tied up in communication feelings, emotions and views probably other stuff that I just can't think of right at this moment.
I know that it is a hard thing for me I take things to personally and get to wrapped up in it - sometimes, I get so hurt that I need time to think and figure it out which is usually days later from the actual event in question. It saddens me that I could have hurt others with my lack of communication. I don't want to use it as an excuse but I am sure my communication skills were definitely lacking during my recent depression spell. (I have always wanted to use that word...spell)
Depression is a hard thing to explain to others that have never suffered from it - it is a very dark place with no light or hope. By no way am I here saying I have been cured because one good day or one good hour can then be followed by many dark ones. Some say it is a selfish disease but I can't see that - one can only be selfish if they knowingly doing for themselves above all others. When one suffers from depression you can't see anything but how miserable you are and how can you be so miserable when everyone else is so happy - you want to be that happy person. It is not that you want to feel that way which if one was selfish would be so.