Ups and downs

So I am suppose to move tomorrow all my stuff is packed and ready too go. Here is the bad part I guess since the whole acceptance thing was right down to the wire I did not get my financial aid award letter until wed or thurs of this week and I thought it was pretty good news I was awarded about half of the money needed to go to this school. I don't know what I was thinking I guess i was thinking since I made hardly any money last year that I would have gotten more and I thought I could definitely do the rest on student loans - not really - you can but one needs a co-signer.
I am so freaked out I just am not sure what to do so I guess I am going to go and see what happens at this point there is nothing to loose I have all my stuff in storage I gave up my place where else do I go any way? If I had my car still I could at least live in that but I don't and this must be how people become homeless. Is this all happening because i didn't ask the 8Ball - that sucks. Or is it maybe a lesson in faith? I don't think I have anymore! If this doesn't work it self out I am just not sure what to do - I really don't and I am tired of trying.
Sorry so depressing - just venting my frustation and confusion and all of those other words that end in "ion".