So with the help of my little sis -I think we figured out why I have been freaking out seemingly for no reason lately.
I explained everything to her how sensitive or "thin skinned" everyone has said I have been and yada yada and yada yada. Which at this moment I want to say to everyone that knows me - I have a tender heart ,yes. I can be sensitive at times, yes. Isn't that why your friend with me - because I am who I am. I almost just apologized for being too sensitive but, I am not at this point in my life I am who I am and I am not apologizing for being to sensitive, to compassionate or to nice.
So I was explaining to my sister how I have been trying to be distracted by other things helping others and not even that has been working. Talk about a bummer - your life sucks so you distract yourself with someone else's problems and I couldn't even do that right.
This horrible funk I am in could be the result of a fiercely independent person realizing she has no control over anything in her life -currently, ever? I feel like I have no control over anything how busy I am at work, where i live - anything!
Which brings a point to mind do we ever truly have control over our lives? The oddest point of all of this is I do know that I have made the decisions that got me to this point? So that is where I am today wondering where am I going?
What am I doing?
What the fuck am I doing and where the fuck am I going?
Funfetti Cupcake
1 year ago
1 comments:
Dont ever apologize. All you can be is who you are and no one should expect anymore from you.
My brother called to say that he is gay-I was like "I know", hes like no really and Im like, "yeah, I know." He said hes paranoid about the parents finding out and I told him to hold his little head up because he is in charge of his happiness. You see, your attitude in life isnt about having a certain set of circumstances, its about having a certain set of attitudes.
Food for thought
Love,
Leah
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