what to do..

OK, so at the beginning of the summer I was asked to join a family trip that is actually next week. At the time (6 months ago) who could imagine shit would go the way it has - and I had said, yes.

Now, that the trip is next week - I definitely have mixed feelings as most of you could imagine. On one hand I feel like it is retarded to go on a trip in the money situation that I am in on the other hand I won't have to worry about eating or money or what to do with myself for a couple of days so why not? Yet, for some reason I can't embrace that idea. So I am going - but, not excited - I sure once I am removed from home and all things stressful the laughing will begin and things will be fun at least until I return home and all things that are stressful.