ups and downs

I still definately have my ups and downs and most of it tends to go along with wether or not I am hopeful about the future or think I have found direction or hormones. I am definately tired of dealing with not having any money. At least my friends have finally stopped asking me to do things that cost money but, in a way that is sad in its self. I had a dear friend recently point out that I think to much well - yes, most defiately I do but how do you stop? Believe me I wish my mind would shut off for a couple of hours maybe then I could get some good sleep.
So I have been looking at going back to school - which most definately means I would have to move - but, lately I have been thinking that just might be a good idea. I don't like the idea of moving from family and friends but I am obvisouly not doing something right or I think (there I go again) things would have been much easier in this last year. Please do not get me wrong - I know life is not easy but it shouldn't be this hard. One should be able to live where they want and be able to make more than ten thousand dollars in one year ...no wonder I couldn't make my car payment!